Thank you with all my heart to everyone who has been sharing your own experiences here. Your responses are profoundly inspiring. It is enormously helpful and empowering to realize we are not alone in this mysterious holding pattern.
As I have been pondering my own uncharacteristic reluctance to initiate new projects, or to be highly engaged, or even gear up each day for bare maintenance mode, I have questioned whether I am just kidding myself.
Is this really a reboot, a system upgrade coming online? Is this a necessary time out of time for regrouping and inner journeying? Or is it a slow, barely perceptible sink into a quicksand of paralysis?
It feels so much like the breathless, almost oppressive calm before a tempest. Will that storm be a tidal wave of creativity or will it be destruction? Will it be pounding hailstorms or ecstatic release?
As several of you have also reported, perhaps the oddest thing is that I feel so detached from needing to know the answer.
Is this ennui? Lazy hazy Summertime? It does seem we are all waiting for the lightning.
What will be will be. Let it be. Be here now.
Which got me to thinking again about this week’s card, The Magician. Unlike today’s illustration (from the beautiful Infinite Visions Tarot), look again at this week’s Rider-Waite-Smith image and you see that nothing much is actually happening. He stands at his altar, staring us straight in the eye, all his tools gathered. He is opening wide, reaching out, inviting the strike that will run straight through him.
How do we wait for such a thing? How do we dare?
I am pretty sure that The Magician does not summon the flow of Source until his tools are gathered and ready. He knows his own skills, his limitations, and he has prepared in every possible way. He is not the novice, but the adept.
Of course in the R-W-S deck, it is The Tower in which the lightning strikes.
Is this what is coming? This is not what I want to experience, do you?
So how can we become more like the powerful figure in today’s illustration? How do we befriend the sudden, profound change many of us feel is waiting nearby? What are your thoughts?