Today, we finish up the exercises from Chapter Nine, “Recovering a Sense of Compassion.” I hope that this chapter truly has opened up some of your deepest blocks, so that compassion and love for your inner creator are unleashed to flood through your spirit.
How did you do with re-reading your morning pages? As Maria commented on Wednesday, we, too, may fear to see our glaringly obvious action steps revealed. The time is coming when we must choose to go back to sleep, and return to our comfortable habits of anxiety and regret; or we can dare to take the road not yet traveled.
1. Our next exercise is a true spell weaving! Of course, Julia doesn’t call it that, but I believe she knows exactly what she’s doing here, and I bet all of you who are experienced practitioners will recognize it, too. She asks us to next do some visualizing. It will be based on the assumption that you have already done a lot of work on discovering your “true north” and naming your goals and dreams.
Now we are going to walk into the reality of this. This exercise will take some time, so how perfect on this holiday weekend (for many folks!). Go slowly, and savor every juicy detail.
First, name your goal (just one for now. Make this The Big One). Use the present tense, and describe yourself doing it at the height of your powers! This is your ideal scene:
I am _________________________________________________.
Read this aloud to yourself, and do so daily from now on! Post it in your work area. If you want to spend some time in your morning pages fleshing out additional delicious details, absolutely do so!
Then, for the next week, collect actual pictures of yourself and combine them with magazine images to collage your ideal scene described above. “Remember,” she writes, “seeing is believing, and the added visual cue of our real self in our ideal scene can make it far more real.”
Yes, I would say so!
2. Priorities: List your creative goals for the next year. Now list some goals for the next month. Now list goals for this coming week.
3. Creative U-turns. All of us have taken creative U-turns. Name one of yours. Name three more. Name the one that just kills you.
Now… forgive yourself. Forgive yourself for all the failures of nerve, timing, and initiative. If you can’t quite do it, write yourself a love letter from your Faery Goddessmother where she listens deeply to your unhappiness, and then waves her magic wand, wipes the slate clean and dries your tears all at the same time. What might she say to you to release you from the spell of bitterness and doom you’ve lived under?
Devise a personalized list of affirmations to help you do better in the future.
Then, gently, very, very gently… consider whether any aborted, abandoned, savaged, or sabotaged brain-children of yours can be rescued. Remember – you are not alone; you have not failed. Everyone has had their creative U-turns.
So choose one of yours. Retrieve it. Mend it. Transform your old lead into gold.
Do not take a creative U-turn now! Instead, notice your resistance (this may be the stuff in the morning pages that you are afraid to look at). Speaking of which, are your morning pages suddenly just too hard? Feeling stupid, boring, pointless, too obvious? Do them anyway. The harder they get, the closer to a breakthrough you are coming. You know this already, don’t you?
So what creative dreams are lurching towards possibility? Admit that they frighten you. I believe that by now you should realize that we’re all in this together here – some ninety or more people (most of whom are lurking – ahem!).. and we can hold open the doorway of possibility for you if you want to ask us. This can be in words, or in magic, or just a supportive intention. Let us know!
4. Lastly, Julia tells us (see? She knows very well what she’s doing! I am not making this up!) .. “Choose an artist totem. It might be a doll, a stuffed animal, a carved figurine, or a wind-up toy. The point is to choose something you immediately feel a protective fondness toward. Give your totem a place of honor and then honor it – by NOT beating up your artist child.”
What totem will you choose? Why? Is there magic or a prayer we can send for you? What is your goal?
Please share! We are all here for one another. Blessings to all!