Inspiring Enchantment & Illumination with Tarot & Intuitive Guidance

The Deal of a Lifetime

Divine GuidanceI don’t want to come to the end of my life and find that I have just lived the length of it. I want to have lived the width of it as well.
— Diane Ackerman

We are coming to the end of Chapter Nine, which has been about Recovering a Sense of Compassion for our inner artist. Finding true compassion for our frightened, wounded inner creator self is essential, if we are to live authentically.

Yesterday, I wrote about a “deal” that Julia describes. After we have admitted to all our fears, grudges, resentments and hurts regarding our creative work, we make a deal with our Highest Source, Spirit, or the God/dess (by whatever name we most love and trust). We promise that if She will take care of the quality, we will take care of the quantity.

In other words, we will quit worrying about whether our work is good enough. We will leave all that in Her hands. What we promise to do is faithfully show up and create.

This is stunningly easy. All we have to do is do our best, under whatever the current circumstances may be. She makes sure our best is Good Enough. We don’t have to figure this out!

I am here to promise you this will change everything, if you let it.  I told you yesterday it will rock your world, and it will.  Let go of the need to critique yourself, because you simply are not qualified to do so.  That is not your job, so have compassion for yourself and stop now.  Stop forever.

Judgments are handled by exceptionally brilliant Quality Control Personnel.  If there is a problem, you will hear about it, from the most loving, patient Source ever.  So get back to your wonderful work/play and quit fussing over the rest!

Everything we’ve been doing in the previous chapters is what makes this possible. Reading deprivation taught us how to hear ourselves more deeply. Exercises that help us examine our early attempts at creating, our fears about money, our core negative assumptions and all the rest have been designed to diagnose the extent of our hurts, that we may heal.

Morning pages reveal hidden epiphanies and shadows every day. Weekly artist dates coax our inner child self out of hiding. We have spent all these months discovering what truly delights us, and what resonates deeply for us.

So now, we check in with our hearts, listen closely to our inner wisdom, and then go for it. And that’s all we have to be responsible for. We surrender to being beginners, if that is the truth.  We let go of judging. We hone our craft. We do our best.

The Boss takes care of the rest.

We are truly co-creating at this level. In this huge act of faith we choose to say goodbye to our stubbornness, our woundedness, and our fears.  We don’t invite our crazy-maker friends, teachers, or colleagues to take a shot at us.  And instead of an inner critic running us ragged, we turn the quality control over to the Creator. We just keep cranking out our very best, and trust that the rest of the production is in profoundly good hands.

So… Time to begin our final exercises for this chapter.

First, Julia finally gives us Official Permission to go back and re-read our morning pages! She instructs us to do this in a very specific way. Take out two differently colored highlighter pens. One will be to mark insights and one will be to highlight actions needed.

She cautions us, “Do not judge your pages or yourself. Yes, they will be boring. Yes, they may be painful. Consider them a map. Take them as information, not an indictment.

Take stock: Who have you been consistently complaining about? What have you procrastinated on? What blessedly have you allowed yourself to change or accept?

Take heart: Many of us notice an alarming tendency toward black-and-white thinking: ‘He’s terrible. He’s wonderful. I love him. I hate him. It’s a great job. It’s a terrible job,’ and so forth. Don’t be thrown by this.

Acknowledge: The pages have allowed us to vent without self-destruction, to plan without interference, to complain without an audience, to dream without restriction, to know our own minds. Give yourself credit for undertaking them. Give them credit for the changes and growth they have fostered.”

I’m going to have a special announcement tomorrow for Thanksgiving, so look for the continuation of our exercises on Friday!

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  • November 25, 2009, 10:14 am Star*

    I just realized as I read this post that the letting go process for my artist process and my art is similar to the place in my hands-on healing work where I learned to trust my intuition, and let go of judgment and the results. I cannot know just how the healing work I offer affects others in the long run, I can merely “show up, be fully present, listen deeply, do my best, speak my truth and let go of the outcome” as Angeles Arrien (a wise woman, writer, speaker, author and cultural anthropologist) points out in her work. This confirms to me that the work I am doing now with art is just a continuation of my journey as a healer for myself and others. I have used the business name LifeAlign since 1989 and have recently expanded it to LifeAlign Healing Arts – Energy Art, Jewelry and Consultation.

  • November 25, 2009, 11:09 am Maria

    I’ve been avoiding sitting down to read my pages because I know what Big Thing I’ve been endlessly complaining about and that needs to change. For me, the trick is finding the courage to do it. 🙂

  • November 25, 2009, 8:20 pm Anita Joy

    I am really looking forward to the next chapter.

  • November 27, 2009, 7:26 am Beth

    Starflower – you are so right! I have used this exact teaching in my Tarot practice, as well. Once we reach a certain level of skill and basic competence (the importance of which is still very real), we have to let it go and trust that we are moving in harmony with the Divine, and the Goddess will sort it out as needs be.

    Maria – Ask us to help you find the courage if you wish! Maybe you’d like to read our words of support. Or if you want us to simply hold an energetic space for you, we can do that, too. I think we can really move this to a new level if people are willing!

    Anita – Me too! But first, I’ll be posting some more exercises today!