Just because our creativity is (I believe with all my heart) guided and sourced from the Divine, this does not mean that the road is always easy, without bumps and potholes. In fact, sometimes, there will be chasms!
To be fulfilled creatives, we must learn to cope with detours, setbacks and loss. And one of the most important elements of successfully working with our creative challenges is to recognize when we are hurt. As blocked artists, this is not always as easy as it sounds.
For instance, to survive my childhood, I was a good soldier, unflinchingly marching through all the rough stuff. I learned to act like bullets could bounce off of my heart, even if it was secretly breaking, and just keep enduring.
Don’t get me wrong — when I see others in pain or difficulty, I am instantly on the spot, overflowing with empathy and connection. But if it is about me, personally, I am programmed to instantly detach and deny. I have worked very hard to heal this, but I still sometimes have a delay between being hit with something intimately painful and actually feeling my own reaction.
Because we are creative, we are sensitive. To de-sensitize is to jeopardize our creativity. As blocked creatives, we each have our issues with de-sensitizing and denying. It’s what we do.
So brushing off our deep disappointments with “Who cares?” or “Who was I kidding anyway?” is dangerous territory for us. Julia warns, “The unmourned disappointment becomes the barrier that separates us from future dreams.”
Burying our feelings about loss or disappointment and pretending we are super-tough is exactly what creates the scar tissue that blocks us and makes it difficult, if not impossible, for us to trust our Source and flow with our art.
One of the most crippling sources of pain for us comes from criticism. But not every kind of criticism. Learning how to discern toxic criticism will help us cope in healthy ways that do not shut us down.
More about this tomorrow.