Dark Moon of Virgo © Starweaver
Dark of the Moon
Dark of the Moon
Plant a seed tonight
Dark of the Moon
What we envision
Will come to be by the Full Moon’s light.
Astrologers everywhere are agreeing that this is a particularly intense New Moon. As Lynn Hayes says, this New Moon “captures all of the powerful September planetary events and provides us with an opportunity to pull them all together for the new lunar cycle. New Moons, remember, represent the beginning of a brand new lunar experience as the Moon conjoins the Sun and their dance begins anew.
“The New Moon is actually the dark of the Moon – the Sun completely obscures the Moon’s light, and we begin the new cycle in a void. This is an opportunity to let go of the lessons learned from the previous lunar cycle and begin anew in the sign of Virgo.”
As you know, we are also smack-dab in the middle of a difficult, slightly (okay, very!) crazy Saturn-Uranus opposition, creating lots of tension and drama. StarIQ notes, “The New Moon in this competent sign [Virgo] triggers the ongoing opposition of restrictive Saturn and innovative Uranus that has been rocking the world since last fall. This might intensify personal and political polarization, but it gives us a chance to recognize destructive habits, understand how they limit us and change them. The Sun and Moon’s union in fastidious Virgo could trap us in narrow prejudices when flexibility and open-mindedness are needed to reduce tension.”
Speaking of tension, we are in the process of taking a clear, but perhaps difficult, look at how we have been deeply violated by criticism. As we discussed yesterday, not all criticism is this toxic (although it can sometimes feel like it at the time!). The harshest criticism, when containing important truth, can be helpful, and our creative self knows this. Even when criticism is unfair, our inner artist is often able to call foul and move forward.
But there are times and circumstances, when the “feedback” can poison our confidence. It can be an instantly crippling, or it can be a time-bomb that ticks quietly, but destroys our faith when we are most vulnerable. Julia rather dramatically calls this kind of violation emotional incest. While dramatic, I don’t believe she is overstating it.
The most common time this occurs is when we are students. Julia writes, “A trusting student hears from an unscrupulous teacher that good work is bad or lacks promise, or that he, the guru-teacher, senses a limit to the student’s real talent or was mistaken in seeing talent, or doubts that there is talent … Personal in nature, nebulous as to specifics, this criticism is like covert sexual harassment – a sullying, yet hard to quantify experience. The student emerges shamed, feeling like a bad artist, or worse, a fool to try.”
Julia believes that academia can especially be a viper’s nest of this kind of behavior. I’ll share more about her thoughts and experiences, but over this weekend, I invite you to spend some time sitting with your memories of possible abusive criticism. Can you discern the difference between what has been helpful and what has left you abused and discouraged? I urge you to work with this in your morning pages. Be specific. Name names, if only to yourself.
And again, I can’t emphasize this enough: there is big loss here to be grieved, perhaps for the first time. Don’t skip over this, but do be kind to yourself and go softly about this work.
May this New Moon bring you deep clearing, healing, and fresh creative beginnings.