I love that so many of you have already made a commitment to creating a creative space where you can unleash your artist self freely. Our environment speaks to us constantly about where our priorities are, and is a reflection of our inner landscape.
As you have noted, making permanent room for our creative pursuits sends a very important message to the deep self. It feels profoundly different to have all your tools and toys ready and waiting for you at all times, rather than having to constantly unpack and then repack them away.
We begin to take ourselves much more seriously when our creative urges can be enjoyed at a moment’s notice. And the good of this is compounded, because oftentimes, those impulses are fleeting and quite whimsical.
Being able to instantly respond to our silliest whims is incredibly important. In fact, Julia notes, “Much of what we do in a creative recovery may seem silly. Silly is a defense our Wet Blanket adult uses to squelch our artist child. Beware of silly as a word you toss at yourself. Yes, artist dates are silly – that’s the whole point.”
So as we wind up this sixth chapter on shifting and expanding our relationship with abundance, there are some exercises ahead for us. Today we will begin one that is a week-long process. Although you may find it a bit challenging at first, it will also be very illuminating; so much so, that many people choose to continue it for several more weeks or months.
“For the next week,” Julia explains, “you will be discovering how you spend your money. Buy a small pocket notepad and write down every purchase, how petty the amount. Petty cash is still cash.
“Each day, date a page and count – what you bought, what you spent, where your money went, whether it was for groceries, lunch in a diner, a cab ride, subway fares, or a loan to your brother. Be meticulous. Be thorough. And be nonjudgmental. This is an exercise in self-observation – not self-flagellation.”
So we are not to suddenly revert to some shaming, miserly attitude. Or skipping some of it, telling yourself, oh, I already do that in my head. Accuracy and impartiality are vital to having this work for your higher good.
Take a Zen-like view, observing yourself with great interest and compassion. Or consider yourself a detective, solving a mystery. For instance, you know how the minute you break a 20 dollar bill, it’s all gone? You will be the sleuth who finally unlocks the secret of where it actually goes (and perhaps while you’re at it, you may find out what happens to those orphaned socks from the dryer).
So get your handy little notepad and start with the cost of its purchase. Then, keep going.