While we theoretically may be on board with the idea of a bountiful, generous Divinity, when it comes to our own lives, many of us squeeze ourselves into tiny boxes, hoping to just scrape by without incident. After all, that’s life, right?
Yet within us is the aching desire for magnificence, for beauty beyond belief, for astonishing dreams, for over the top, out of bounds creation. For we are, ourselves, the hands, eyes, thoughts and dreams of that very same, very extravagant Divine.
Julia writes, “Most of us harbor a secret belief that work has to be work and not play, and that anything we really want to do – like write, act, dance – must be considered frivolous and be placed a distant second. This is not true.
“We are operating out of the toxic old idea that the Goddess’ will for us and our will for us are at opposite ends of the table….Thinking like this is grounded in the idea that God is a stern parent with very rigid ideas about what’s appropriate for us…”
Even for the most enlightened, it is hard to completely eliminate the old wounds from our upbringing. Of course, those beliefs may have less to do with teachings about a wrathful, judgmental Biblical God, and more about our own family experiences. Either way, we may still have, somewhere, the image of a strict, touchy parent/Deity who is stingy. Someone who supposedly loves us, but doesn’t seem to actually like us very much.
She also challenges us to examine the extent to which we equate difficulty with virtue, and hard work with goodness. If this is still in our old programming, then anything that is fun or easy would be suspect, wouldn’t it? Where does that put making art?
“Something – a talent for painting, say – that comes to us easily,” Julia notes, “and seems compatible with us must be some sort of cheap trick, not to be taken seriously.
“On the one hand, we give lip service to the notion that God wants us to be happy, joyous and free. On the other, we secretly think that God wants us to be broke if we are going to be so decadent as to want to be artists. Do we have any proof at all for these ideas about God?”
She continues, “The creator may be our father/mother/source, but it is surely not the father/mother/church/teacher/friends here on earth who have instilled in us their ideas of what is sensible for us. Creativity is not and never has been sensible. Why should it be? Why should you be? Do you still think there is some moral virtue in being martyred?”
So begin wherever you are, whatever your bank account says. Money is relative, so give yourself a break. Treat yourself to at least one thing that your Artist Self really wants. It may be extravagant, but if all these past several days of ramblings haven’t said anything else to you, I hope they have at least made clear that extravagance is the name of the game of Life. Money is energy and it needs to flow. Get the Flow going. Divine Abundance is all around you. Give it to yourself.
See what happens next.