Over and over, we have to go back to our beginning. We should not be ashamed of this. It is good. It’s like drinking water.
— Natalie Goldberg
So. How was your weekend? Did you examine where you really are in terms of living your life like you actually have Divine help available at all times? Did you get started with your visualization/imagination collection?
I am learning that I still have a shocking lot of growing to do. On an emotional and even intellectual level, I’m on board, have been for years. But when I look at my behavior, I can see someone who is often still trying to control everything and who is holding on to a lot of limiting beliefs. I know better, really I do. But old habits, especially under stress, need to be dealt with again, and ever deeper.
And so, I am. How about you?
So, we continue with our final tasks for Chapter Five. Last week, our final question was, if I were twenty and had money, what adventures would I treat myself to? Today, we begin from a different perspective:
* If I were sixty-five (or seventy-five if you’re already there!), and had plenty of money, what postponed pleasures would I give myself? Once again, make your list and start to hunt for the images to put in your collection. Julia tells us, “This is a very potent tool. I now live in a house that I imaged for ten years.”
Personally, I think that ten years is unusually long for this kind of magic (for magic it most truly is). I have noticed that once we start to send our desires out into the multiverse in this way, response time speeds up. Replies from Love come flying back to us faster than our wildest dreams!
Here’s our next question.
* Ten ways I am mean to myself are . . . Julia explains that, “Just as making the positive explicit helps allow it into our lives, making the negative explicit helps us to exorcise it.”
* Ten items I would like to own that I don’t are . . . Once again, after you make a list, start to add to your collection with photos, magazine ads; or sketch your desires.
* To be honest, my favorite creative block is . . . .
Is it TV, Facebook, over-reading, eating, friends, work, personal dramas, rescuing people, obsessive exercise, websurfing. . . what? Truth-telling to ourselves can work wonders here. And Julia suggests a very specific way to tell this truth: whether you can draw or not, draw a cartoon of yourself doing this behavior. Yes, humor heals.
* My payoff for staying blocked is . . . This is a good one for deeper exploration in the morning pages.
* The person I blame for being blocked is . . . Again, there are liable to be multiple layers to this answer, so explore it in your pages. Go into some real depth; it may seem simple on the surface, but give this a fair amount of thought.
Meantime, yes, this is the last day of the month. On this day, we honor the great Triple Goddess Hecate, Queen of the Night and the Goddess of Witches. Hecate is a protector of women, a mighty advocate for the marginalized, and She who guards the crossroads. It is She who teaches us the ancient Mysteries.
In ancient times, Her worshippers would leave a “Hecate’s Supper” with specially prepared foods as offerings to Her. These offerings are to be left behind at a crossroads at night, without looking back. As we stand at our own crossroads, as artists, creators, healers and awakeners, let us humbly ask Hecate to both guide us, and help us learn to be guided.