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Crazy Healing

Leap of Faith © C.J. Bradford

There is the risk you cannot afford to take,

[and] there is the risk you cannot afford not to take.

— Peter Drucker

As I mentioned yesterday, Julia poses some tough questions about our self-destructive shadow side, which we may find smack in our way at this point. She explains, “The question ‘Are you self-destructive?’ is asked so frequently that we seldom hear it accurately. What it means is ‘Are you destructive of yourself?’ And what that really asks us is, ‘Are you destructive of your true nature?’

“Many people, caught in the virtue trap, do not appear to be self-destructive to the casual eye. Bent on being good husbands, fathers, mothers, wives, teachers, whatevers, they have constructed a false self that looks good to the world and meets with a lot of worldly approval. This false self is always patient, always willing to defer its needs to meet the needs or demands of another. (‘What a great guy! That Fred gave up his concert tickets to help me move on a Friday night…’)

“Virtuous to a fault, these trapped creatives have destroyed the true self, the self that didn’t meet with much approval as a child. The self who heard repeatedly, ‘Don’t be selfish!’ The true self is a disturbing character, healthy and occasionally anarchistic, who knows how to play, how to say ‘no’ to others, and ‘yes’ to itself.”

She continues, “‘Are you self-destructive?’ is a question that the apparently virtuous would be bound to answer with a resounding no. They then conjure up a list proving how responsible they are. But responsible to whom? The question is, ‘Are you self-destructive?’ Not ‘Do you appear self-destructive?’ And most definitely not, ‘Are you nice to other people?’”

To answer this, we need to have a clear idea of who that self is that she’s questioning. She argues that this is the self we have been systematically ignoring and erasing ever since we were derailed from our creative dreams long ago.

So she suggests that you can gauge to what extent you are still disconnected from that wild, creative self by answering:

What would I try, if it weren’t so crazy:
1. Sky diving, scuba diving

2. Belly dancing, Latin dancing

3. Getting my poems published

4. Buying a drum set

5. Bicycling through France.

I would urge you to add your own ideas, too. If your list looks exciting, even crazy, she tells us we are on the right track. “These crazy notions are actually voices from our true self. What would I do, if it weren’t too selfish?”

If this seems like the unraveling of what is safe and well-known to you, maybe it is. But maybe that unraveling is precisely the opposite of what is most dangerous and self-destructive for the real you.

Tomorrow, I’ll share her Virtue Trap Quiz and more!

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  • June 18, 2009, 1:16 pm ARIE

    Well I would like to take a sky diving and a scuba diving course but I don't have the financial means to do that for the moment.
    I would like to go on an expedition to Amazonas.
    When I was 18, many moons ago, Pan American advertised that they where accepting reservations for their first flight to the moon. Well, I filled the slip and mailed it to them. A few days later a reporter from a major national newspaper came to interview me. So there I was with a picture in the newspaper. In the meantime PAN AM got banckrupt and I am not flying to the moon. As if I had the money for that. Or maybe they would give me a free ticked, as it seems I was the first crazy one to reply.
    My surroundings never considered me as normal.
    What I can observe that as a child I was crazy, then I started a kind of a re-programing in order to fit society, get a decent job, be accepted. But then later on in my life, I started slowly to return being crazy. Now I am considered completely crazy by my family. Also at my job they consider me a weird bird but as I sell well they keep me there.
    I am also able to observe these false personalities in myself. Yes there are many, not one. But over time I can see that the personality of the spiritual work gets stronger.

  • June 18, 2009, 11:20 pm Star

    I realized that I only give myself permission to do my art AFTER I have finished the household chores and errands on my list. Uh-OH, this sounds self destructive to me! I often end up getting to my art late at night when I am already tired. Just think how creative I would be if I did the art first and the grass mowing last….! Art when I am fresh and have clarity of mind and eyes…what a pleasant concept. I'm not sure it is possible very often just now, but at least I am witnessing this flaw in my system.