Working our way through our kriyas, or at least the small and large shifts of how we perceive ourselves, many peripheral things will change, too. Things that seem to have no obvious connection to the inner work we’re doing.
For instance, Julia writes, “One of the clearest signals that something healthy is afoot is the impulse to weed out, sort through, and discard old clothes, papers, and belongings.
“‘I don’t need this anymore,’ we say as we toss a low-self-worth shirt into the giveaway pile. ‘I’m sick of this broken down dresser and its sixteen coats of paint,’ as the dresser goes off to Goodwill.”
How perfect for this time of year! I don’t know of anyone that doesn’t get at least a little bit of spring-cleaning juices going. But to do it with the magical intention of saying goodbye to your fears, your self-sabotage, and your non-creative persona can be terrific fun and very liberating.
In a time when we are surrounded by fears about lack, the struggling economy, possible job loss and financial cutbacks, the impulse may be to hunker down, hoard, and cling to every little thing, just in case.
Instead, it can be a powerful antidote to such fears for us to release, let go, and clear away those pieces of our past that no longer suit us. You may not know yet who you are going to be, or what you will need. But as long as we hang on to the old and unworkable, there is no room for the new and suitable, as Julia describes this.
“A closet stuffed with ratty old clothes does not invite new ones. A house overflowing with odds and ends and tidbits you’ve held on to for someday has no space for the things that might truly enhance today.”
Not to mention the icky feng shui that such a condition creates! (If you’d like to learn more, I wrote a whole series on the connections between love, creativity, happiness and the energies of our homes, around the time of this post).
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Julia tells us, “When the search-and-discard impulse seizes you, two crosscurrents are at work: the old you is leaving and grieving, while the new you celebrates and grows strong. As with any rupture, there is both tension and relief. Long-seated depression breaks up like an ice floe. Long-frozen feelings thaw, melt, cascade, flood and often overrun their container (you). You may find yourself feeling volatile and changeable. You are.”
She goes on to caution that giddiness, sudden bursts of tears and laughter, and emotional pyrotechnics are to be expected. This may not always be the case for everyone, but if it does, don’t let it scare you. Think of it as the changeable Springtime weather: one minute, you are a sunny field of daisies, and half an hour later, dark ominous clouds appear from nowhere, and a big stormy thrashing blows through.
However big or quiet all this weather may appear on the surface, she reminds us, “It is important to know that no matter which form your growth takes, there is another kind of change, slower and more subtle, accumulating daily, whether you sense its presence or not.”
She writes, “ ‘Nothing dramatic is happening to me. I don’t think the process is working,’ I have often been told by someone who, from my perspective, is changing at the speed of light. The analogy that I use is that once we engage in the process of morning pages and artist dates, we begin to move at such a velocity that we do not even realize the pace.”
What changes are you noticing? Getting a new haircut? Experimenting with a different look? Have you been purging your old self (selves) in some way? Going through emotional roller-coasters? I certainly have. Please feel free to share your thoughts. And yes, there will be lots more about this tomorrow.